Hearts And Butterflies
Happiness is a butterfly, which when pursued, is always just beyond your grasp, but which, if you will sit down quietly, may alight upon you. ~Nathaniel Hawthorne
Beautiful and graceful, varied and enchanting, small but approachable, butterflies lead you to the sunny side of life. And everyone deserves a little sunshine. ~Jeffrey Glassberg
Sometimes, I don't know what to feel.
When I look at these pictures, I think of the most bittersweet moment that just popped into my head....and my dream.
Haha, I know they may seem irrelevant, but somehow it soothes me. I have always been a fan of butterflies. Such beautiful creatures, always so free and feeding on the simplest and sweetest things. =)
Haha and sometimes I even dream of becoming one of them. It seems like...I don't know...crazy but just plain fun and free =D
"Go on, hitch a ride on the back of a butterfly. There's no better way to fly."
~Pat Monahan, Scott Michael Underwood, and James W. Stafford, "Get To Me"
Somehow, although mixing with all the hurt and pain...It just makes me happy. ^^
I always wondered whether two butterflies have the same unique patterns. Something like snow flakes. :) Each of them having their own identity. Never identical.
And about the hearts? Well lets just say I imagine those little creatures being locked up inside my heart. And whenever I feel that tingly feeling, they just go flapping here and there, thus, making my heart flutter like crazy.
It happens to me every night. I would feel that sweet feeling only to realise the pain of getting stabbed when I wake up.
Yea, definitely bittersweet. </3
On the bright side, many great and wonderful things have kept me busy. :) Made me happy. And I have a lot of people to thank for making it happen. And yet I still owe my time to others too. ^^
But there's always a tiny slit or hole...that just
tries to open up again...Then all those nasty feelings just come rushing back.
It's so frustrating when you're trying to be happy and yet...you can't fully be happy. That's why I have God. That's why I depend on Him to make this pain go away. Alas...I'm human. And what was once God's great gift to me- like Eve was God's gift to Adam- has walked away.
I've been called clingy, I've been called annoying and pathetic. I am a stubborn girl.
People say dignity is all I have left. Well enough then, I wanna free my dignity like a butterfly..I will let go of my pride...let them fly away, piece by piece.
Because I swear...You'd do anything...for this aching feeling,crazy things.
Unfortunately like defying friends and family. I never ever wanted to do any of this. People thought I didn't try. Well I did.
I wanna be happy. I wanna love. I wanna give. So why? Is this what you call annoying and selfish? =( Don't say that. You're just doubting yourself. Convincing yourself to think otherwise.
Love is such an important feeling. Sigh...What's life without love...right Jess? =')
You know I love you woman...And everyone else. =D
But...I can wait...right Abba? Father?
Sigh....
Hurt. Having so much hope and faith. Really now? Well I'm trying. Enough.I love you...So enough. =)
May the wings of the butterfly kiss the sun
And find your shoulder to light on,
To bring you luck, happiness and riches
Today, tomorrow and beyond.
~Irish Blessing
Hope and Faith,
Strengthen me anew..
God is great,
Butterfly kisses from me to you.
~Candace
I love you.
